Dissapointment and Masks.

 Listening to Total Eclipse of the Heart - Glee Cast.

 Halo. Malam ini gue dibuat kecewa.. Lagi.

 Yah--gue nggak mau ngejabarin karena apa. I'm (still) not over it, though. Katakanlah ada seseorang yang menjanjikan gue sesuatu. Udah sejak lama. Dan saat gue cek.. Yah, hal yang dijanjiin itu belom ada. Gue ngerti kok kalau dia sibuk. Ngerti sekali. Tapi bisakah dia nggak menjanjikan apa-apa kalau memang dia nggak bisa memenuhinya? Apalagi, sejujurnya, gue bukan tipe orang yang.. Yah, gampang nagih sesuatu. Walau itu hak gue. I dunno.. Guess it's running from my dad's family.

 Dan gue paling benci sama diri sendiri kalau udah kaya gini: Kalo hal yang bisa gue lakuin cuma mendem doang.

 I know, i know, I'm not gifted with the gift of telling everyone what's on my mind. That what makes me a tsundere, i guess. #DOR. But seriously.. I keep everything inside. And yes, I'm humiliated to said that sometimes i do fake it. I don't even know why i do that--maybe to please someone. When everyone said proudly that they're not born to please someone.. I admit it. I always try to please others. Even i sacrifice myself on a few cases.

 Sometimes I'm tired of keeping everything by myself. Sometimes i just wanna explode and let it go. Sometimes i just want to walk away and don't give a damn on things.  Sometimes i just wanna forget people and let myself win.

 Well, happy imagining, girl.